Code Blue.

Monologue

" No, actually I really wanted to see you.
I knew that you didn't want to see me anymore.
I was being a nuisance.
I'm weak.
I'm afraid that if I died like this, it will seem like none of this ever happened.
I want to leave proof inside of you, Haruka, that I was once alive.
I want to leave a permanent scar on you.
I really want to.. I want to just mess you up.
I want you to taste the same pain that I'm tasting.
I don't care if you hate me.
I want you to always.. always remember me. "

Christopher Han's Love Song

It's interesting enough.

Grades and School

Nerdy as it is, I like doing well in school. I like taking quizzes and tests and I like doing better than the people around me.

Anyway, after living in the library this quarter I've come out with

English 1c - A
Oceanography - B+
The branch of Earth science that studies the ocean. It covers a wide range of topics, including marine organisms and ecosystem dynamics; ocean currents, waves, and geophysical fluid dynamics; plate tectonics and the geology of the sea floor; and fluxes of various chemical substances and physical properties within the ocean and across its boundaries.
Theoretical Physics - B
Employs mathematical models and abstractions of physics in an attempt to explain experimental data taken of the natural world. Its central core is mathematical physics, though other conceptual techniques are also used. The goal is to rationalize, explain and predict physical phenomena.

It sucks for Ocean, because I missed a quiz, because I slept-in, and that could have made that an A. English was obviously going to go well, and TP surprised me.

Overall, I'm pretty happy. Next quarter will b.

December 11, 2008

I know it's not Mother's day, but I love my mom.

Camel Crush

Well my blood pressure is high again. I can always tell.

What They Already Know.

Finals on Monday.

I destroyed my English final. Turned in my 5th paper then had an in-class essay. Finished it in 2 hours and I'm more confident about it than any other paper I've turned in.

Theoretical Physics Final was whatever. I'll probably end up with a B+
:[[

Dedicated to Patty, Jessica, Brad, John, Rui, etc.

Too Easy

I've hit one hundred posts!

In celebration, I'd like to say that Derek Portea is a swagger jacker.

I'm always down for good literature.

Instantly the spirit of hell awoke in me and raged.

I resolved in my future conduct to redeem the past; and I can say with honesty that my resolve was fruitful of some good.

It was in my own person that I was once more tempted to trifle with my conscience; and it was as an ordinary secret sinner that I at last fell before the assaults of temptation.

There comes an end to all things; the most capacious measure is filled at last; and this brief condescension to my evil finally destroyed the balance of my soul. And yet I was not alarmed; the fall seemed natural, like a return to the old days before I had made my discovery.

My reason wavered, but it did not fail me utterly, I have more than once observed that in my second character, my faculties seemed sharpened to a point and my spirits more tensely elastic.

It is useless, and the time awfully fails me, to prolong this description; no one has ever suffered such torments, let that suffice; and yet even to these, habit brought -- no, not alleviation -- but a certain callousness of soul, a certain acquiescence of despair; and my punishment might have gone for years, but for the last calamity which has now befallen, and which has finally severed me from my own face and nature.

I am careless; this is my true hour of death, and what is to follow concerns another than myself. Here, then, as i lay down the pen, and proceed to seal up my confession I bring the life of that unhappy Henry Jekyll to an end.

askjdz'm,n

Fuck fuck fuck, I hope I didn't fuck things up.

Alright.

For sure this time.
It's in my drive way.
I'll bring it next week because of insurance.

Excited.

Oh, fuck me.

I have until November 30th, 2008 to apply to transfer. That's two days from now, and it's a lot of work. I've already started but I've forgotten how troublesome applying to a university could be.

Woe is me.

26, November.

Fuck, I don't know. I miss sleeping.

Was expecting more.

UFC 91 Pay Scale

Brock Lesnar - $450,000 (includes $200,000 win bonus)
Randy Couture - $250,000
Gabriel Gonzaga - $110,000 (includes $55,000 win bonus)
Dustin Hazelett - $88,000 (includes $14,000 win, $60,000 “Submission of the Night” bonuses)
Kenny Florian - $80,000 (includes $40,000 win bonus)
Jeremy Stephens - $76,000 (includes $8,000 win, $60,000 “Knockout of the Night” bonuses)
Jorge Gurgel - $70,000 (includes $60,000 “Fight of the Night” bonus)
Aaron Riley - $68,000 (includes $4,000 win, $60,000 “Fight of the Night” bonuses)
Demian Maia - $40,000 (includes $20,000 win bonus)
Joe Stevenson - $35,000
Nate Quarry - $25,000
Mark Bocek - $18,000 (includes $9,000 win bonus)
Matt Brown - $16,000 (includes $8,000 win bonus)
Tamdan McCrory - $10,000
Josh Hendricks - $8,000
Alvin Robinson - $7,000
Rafael dos Anjos - $4,000
Ryan Thomas - $3,000

Aw shit.

Swag like no one else.

Kings

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Team Cake.

I'm feeling a little better and I want to say thanks to everyone who cared, etc. I've been overdosing on Vitamin C, about 1000 grams a day. I don't know if it's helping, but don't get on my back for it; I like to experiment with my body and see how far it can go.

Anyway.
Today, I had to walk out of class for a second, because my cough was extremely uncontrollable. It was really sad. But on a brighter note, I got another "A" on my paper. I honestly love English way too much.

Future plans.
I don't know what's going to happen here at UCR next year, so I'm taking the initiative. I'm going to apply and try to transfer to ucIrvine. I don't regret decling their offer the first time; mostly because they weren't going to pay for ANYTHING. Though I digress, I enjoyed EVERYTHING at UCR, but Irvine is a closer school and it's where I'm probably going to find my career. Making this public might be the catalyst for next year's uncertainity, but nothing is certain.

News

I'm very sick.
and on a side note, I wonder if reading badly written papers will affect my writing negatively.

No Names.

There is a certain way to go about things when trying to persuade people. You've got to do it right or you'll lose the ones you're trying to convince. This isn't about what you were talking about, it's about how you talked about it. I'm neither on your side or against it.
Although you'll never read this, I hope this changes the way others act. Your pathos sucks and I'm disappointed in your ignorance. You sound like an overzealous, religious nutcase, and I hope you die in a fire. You're no better than anyone else.

Cheers, you twat.

That's Right.

Oh oh oh

She was thinking Mr. Right, I was thinking RIGHT NOW.




The smoke of choice. Just kidding.

One Step

She talks with a low soft voice.
So let her talk and let her lips touch mine.
Is this pressure really going to sweat her.
Can I impress her, finally undress her.

Apologizes.

I'm done. I told myself at strike three I'd hold off. I really wanted to redeem myself last night too.
So, I'm not doing anything hard and if I do it'll be limited.

I'm sorry y'all.

What?

While waiting for the trolley today on University.
*Raiding for women. Sees nothing. Notices they're coming from other way.
Napp: "Damn, I should turn around, I'm missing out."
*Right after I turn, sees Jackie walking with boyfriend.
Napp: (roughly) "Oh. Well nevermind."
*Turns back around.
:[

Lol, in actuality it was pretty funny.

Imbeciles

BOOOM.
You're gonna get it, you're gonna get knocked out.

@ UCR, rooms are labeled as such, 212, etc,etc.
Just so you know, the 200 indicates the second level, and it's room 12.
Another example, 350. 3rd floor, room 350.

Got ems?

808 & Heartbreak

I had my fucking doubts about Kanye West's new album, but he shut me up.

Heartless
Coldest Winter

Daily Words.

Cynical minds will get you nowhere.

October 20, 2008

Long story cut short. Today's a good day. Right now I'm in the Rivera Library and I'll be here all day, almost. I'll be studying and writing blogs, and also applying for a job at the Highlander newspaper. But I got my first paper back from Professor Jones and I earned myself an A.
Ballin'
Although I get As often in English this one's pretty cool because it's the first, and I like starting off on a good base.

Anyway, studying!

GB Cerritos

Gracie Barra Cerritos is now open.
Renato Babalu Sobral.
Babalu BJJ
19112 Pioneer Blvd.
Cerritos, California 90703
Phone: 562.467.0600

I like how there's a GB place now, when I'm gone.

Holdin it down for Thailand.

My boy, Traphik



LYRICS
Ahem, let me introduce
Myself cuz I know that you aint used
To an asian dude stepping to you like me
But hey give it a chance I just might be
Just the refreshin squeeze of lemon
Ya need in ya life when it gets depressin
Come wit me and decrease the stressing
A new type of dude lemme teach ya a lesson

Babygirl dont trip, come on just take my hand
Ill introduce you to my world, stop in Thailand
I really want to show you how we do
I can be your first asian boy

She said, its really nice to meet ya- likewise
I never had a boy like you wit tight eyes
Step to me quite wit a game like yours
I said pack ya bags and come on my tour
let down ya hair while I cook some rice
And I swear that we dont all look alike
And no, Im not no math expert
But you plus me I know It just works
So pause ya life and start to rewind
And leave all them other lame dudes behind
show you how I do in my continent
Where the ladies get respect and compliments
Confident, not gon be starin all night
Cuz Im not yo average stereotype
More than makin shoes and makin toys
I could make you smile, yo asian boy

Wanna get away? Watcha got to lose?
Come on in girl, take off ya shoes
Show me ya soul and Ill show you mine
If you toes aint did well boo thats just fine
My aunt does nails, nah im just playin
But dont get too comfy, cuz we aint stayin
Take you to Beijing while were dating
Ill show you the great wall, its amazing
Show me ya soul in seoul, Korea
I been lookin for a girl like you my whole career
In the phillipines scene well ride in slowmo
Sit in the lo-lo eat chicken adobo
If you got skills then you could show me
Cuz all of our houses got kareoke
Chinese Japanese thai pnoy
Go head and take yo pick girl, asian boys
kareoke


Who killin them on youtube
She gon respond like You, dude
A shock to me
I didnt think she be watchin me.
She said can we go get some pho now
I said get some what? O wow
Actually Its pronounced pha, oh
Well Can we go get some, fasho
He chinky, I know what ya thinkin.
He look like he always blinkin
Take my hand, come to thailand
she love my Thais but NOT what she drinkin
tell me whats your mental
about this oriental
gentle
man but I break you off like the tip of a pencil.
Dress fly like the freshest prince.
Before they out got the freshest kix
And you thought he was just a hypebeast.
But look at these nikes is anybody like me?
And I know you aint in to my kind.
I seen yo exs they not impressive.
But I still make that CAAASH. Always on my grind im a good investment.
And if you liked jin when he flows.
or Dante Basco on old black shows
then maybe you should daaate me
cuz wed make some pretty baaabiees

O-B-A-M-A.

Confidence

I grappled with a friend the other day.
He has 4 years HS wrestling experience.
He weighs more than me.
I won :]

I ain't dead, and I ain't done.

Seriously, what's up?
What's so bad about me? Why don't you notice me?
I want to know.

LOLOLOL.

I hide all the alcohol starting on Fridays.
Just in case!

Walnut Teen Center.

And over and over again
we'll make love to the sweet
symphony of sin.
\

Starting Today.

My New Year's Resolution is to buy gifts for people for their birthdays.

No Other way.

During my journey through life I have realized that every one makes mistakes.

I wish

I wish I was little bit taller
I wish I was a baller
I wish I had a girl who looked good
I would call her
I wish I had a rabbit in a hat with a bat
And a '64 Impala

I wish I was like six-foot-nine
So I could get with Mochi
Cause she don't know me but she's really fine
You know I see her all the time
Everywhere I go, and even in my dreams
I can scheme of ways to make her mine
Cause I know she's living phat
And her boyfriend's tall and he plays Black Belt Jiujitsu
So how am I gonna compete with that
Cause when it comes to playing on the mat
I'm always last to be picked and that's it or never picked at all
So I just lean up on the wall or sit in the bleachers with girls
Who came to watch their men roll
Dag y'all! I never understood
Why the jocks get all the fly girls and
And me I get the hood rats
I tell 'em scat, skittle, skibobble
Got hit with a bottle, put up in the hospital
I confess it's a shame when you're livin' in a city
The size of a box and nobody knows your name

I wish I was little bit taller
I wish I was a baller
I wish I had a girl who looked good
I would call her
I wish I had a rabbit in a hat with a bat
And a '64 Impala

Now something has gotta change
Cause nobody knows my name
Everything has stayed the same
I keep doin' this
Now some things have gotta change
Cause nobody knows my name
Everything is gonna change
Oooooooooh!
Now something is gonna change
Cause nobody knows my name
Everything's about to change
Oooooooooh!
Now some things have gotta change
Cause nobody knows my name

I wish....I wish..

There Ain't No Glory.

A black man or a white man
or an Asian or a Mexican
or a African or a South African
or a Serbian or a Libyian
You're all one race, the human race
Just a different smile for a different face.

Kaba

Just got back from the Kaba Modern Workshops that were in Costa Mesa. My god I love Yuri Tag, and Tony Tran is just too legit.

Pretty amazing.

Simple Life.

That photo in itself is hilarious. I just find it funny that Target is stocked with Domo-Kun stuff. Photo was taken today. It's a giant stuffed Domo and it has an eye patch as if it were a pirate. I guess this one's dedicated to my gay roommate John.



(Trying different photo layouts for blogspot is fucking ridiculous. Moving on..)
Ha ha ha. So I was going to post the cash photo on facebook but I thought I'd look too much of a douchebag, but I am the King of Douchebags. Anyway, I'm not saying that I'm rich, I'm far from it, but what I am saying is, I could take care of you babygirl :]




I like shopping with these people, sometimes. Ha ha. This was taken a couple days ago when me and Brad went to El Monte to chill with Roo. It's Santa Anita mall, and I think it's a lot better than Cerritos.

Yo!

Shout out to J.A.P. She probably won't even know that's for her though.

deep updates coming soon. Just too lazy and tired right now.

Napp

Napp you're a fucking idiot.

Sad face.

:(

Missing out.

Just back from bjj, but here's what I missed out on.
Nike 10k with Kanye in LA. Doesn't that look exciting as fuck? Yes it does.
Well about to eat.

Federer by Flying Armbar.

Rafa Nadal is nobody.

Malm @ Ikea.

Never been to Ikea until today. It's pretty sick in there. Anyway I got that bedframe in that size and color. Apparently they sell that model like "fire", said the employee to me. Thanks to Bradley for coming along.

Driving, love.

Driving Derek's car through West Covina, love.

Will post more later w/pics.

Sports Chalet in Santa Anita is bomb.

Missing You

These commercials and Trinah make me miss Thailand.

Bomb

CollegeHumor.com

Right now they have Orientation themed articles. I remember reading them when I was a first year last year, it made me feel all gay inside. I read some right now and I'm getting that feeling again. I can't wait for school and I fucking love CH.

My God.

My medical bills are daunting.
They could probably be used to feed hundreds.

Hella true.

EnV phones take the best photos.

Strictly.

Strictly Peruvian girls.

I want to believe

I feel like it's not real, but parts of me believes.
I really don't know, seems legit i guess.

The Derek Portea Event

San Francisco Anthem

Shout out to all those who live within the Bay Area.

Gotta Have It

Wong Fu Productions

Nice guy - Part 1


Not because I'm a nice guy, but because it has a point, it's well done and it's comical.

Current Days

Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and training at The Dojo. Oh and it's not in the bag anymore ;]
Everyday


Creating music with Jacob Clements
Saturday


Visiting Jesse at his new house in Corona.
Sunday


Traveling to Cerritos to shop with Eric and Jake
Monday. Oh and Happy Birthday Jake!

Wethink Rethink

Definitely check out the people and movement of Wethinkrethink. They're doing something different and their movement has a meaning. This really has the potential to go far.

http://wethinkrethink.wordpress.com/

Bjork - "Who is It"

Truthfully.

I don't like how things are going.
I just want to be back in Riverside.